so i failed at quitting the Rx. Starting it again made me very very very tired. I have been sleeping for three days. I would still be sleeping if i didn't have my beautiful babies to take care of. Thank God for them. I'm sure they've saved me in more ways than one. I feel like I'm stuck in a hazy dream at the moment. I feel slow and floaty. I need to go out side and go running. I'm afraid the wind would make the kids too cold though. I don't want them getting sick. I'll wait till it's 60 again i suppose. Anyways. Gotta go pay attention to my chitlins.

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so... still withdrawling from the rx drug..... damn quack doctors.   Other than that i'm crampy and not doing to bad over all.  Kinda wish my boobs were bigger. Kinda wish the days were longer. Kinda miss my ex (not the one i'm talking about below).  Been going through a weird 'missing the old days' thing the past week. It started when i had a dream about my old besty Nick. I love that kid. He was my 'ex before lasts' best bud. All three of us were the best of friends. Even after the ex and i split. It all ended when they got raided! Yes, raided. Nick the dummy, and the ex were growing and selling pot. After that bit of trouble they were ordered not to be in contact with one another.   Nick was caught selling again and is currently incarcerated. Haven't talked to the ex  or Nick since. *tear*
I don't condone that shit at all.... but i still miss my besty. He was a hardcore pot head and i wasn't at all... but it didn't matter. We loved each other.   Lmfao, the last time i hung out with the both of them was the best time i had with him. We stayed up all night reminiscing about camping, partying, ex's, and how much we meant to each other.  I guess it was kind of fitting that it was our last night together. Towards the end of the night, when the three of us were perched on the bed and quite drunk, I professed my undying love for Nick. Starting to cry a little I told both of them I was so happy to have the best fucking friends in the world with me.  I looked up at them and they both gave me big hugs and very unexpectedly got teary eyed! Both of them! The macho pot smokers were crying with me! lol. I miss those assholes! I promise I'll track your ass down when you get out Nick. I'll explain why i was prohibited from visiting you in the klink. You can slap me around if you need to. I love you bitches.... I'm gonna go take a shot, reminisce some more and maybe look through some old pics. *mwah*!